Something that has been on my mind...?

So, for a while now and even more since Michael Jackson died, I am feeling kind of like a failure because I was unable to reach out to him before he died. I wanted Michael Jackson to know who I was because I believe I could have been an awesome friend to him and he would have loved me. Does anybody else feel the same way? Geez, I find myself so, so jealous of Diana Ross, Brooke Shields, etc...Pray for me!